Moving out of your comfort zone...come on ^^

Huhuuuuuu my honeybees :) 

Wuhuu it is summer here in Germany, like today there are 37 degrees *OMG* :S 
Wow i normally enjoy the warm days sooo much, but this also for me will be a little bit too much i think.. but let´s make the best of it ;)

Such a wonderful sundown isn´t it? This
absolutely feels like summer :) 

So today my post will be a little bit about moving out of your comfort zone, which is reeeeeally scary i think.. especially for someone with a mental health issue....
and of course everybody has different views on what a comfort zone actually is, but here i will describe my own experiences and fears to it :) 

A comfort zone is the surrounding, place and area where you feel safe and you easily interact with the people and the environment in which you live :) Just like everything comes and goes without much thinking, low anxiety and many negative thoughts.... so why the hell moving out of this safe place???????
Hmm one reason could be, this place may made (or still makes) you ill....

Staying in a place or a zone, means in other words your life is on pause.... because staying is the opposite of moving, or am i right? 
And so if your comfort zone is the only thing you enjoy/accept/or act in you will one day or another be anxious about the other surrounding and these fears can be so hard to deal with i swear.. 
Also just think of what beautiful places you could get to see if you leave your zone?! The world is so big and you just stay in your 4 walls..? Yeah making new experiences can be so fearful, but also they could be so cool and amazing :) Just imagine how proud you could be, if you managed to do something which scares you!! This also in my eyes can be very healing.... 

This photo i made in a club last weekend where i was
visiting a friend ;) and i thought you all really should
take this for real!!!!!!!

So what are your fears and where does your comfort zone start and end? 
I don´t actually know for sure where it starts and ends, but many things easily become a fear for me if i do not regularly eat them for example.. just like those common fear foods.... :S so by times again and again eating them makes them easier to handle and they also stay on the safe side :) But this is just one example, like there could be zones in social life as well or in communication and so on...
But enough said now for tonight ;) Get your ass out of you comfort zones!!!!!!
Wish you a wonderful evening now xxxxxxxxxxxoxxxxxxx

Acceptance... the most ever used word in every therapy you definitively should know about ;)

Huhuuu all you lovelies and bees ;) :-*

I think the title at all describes best and already what this blog post will be about, right?! :) 
Yeah it´s all about ACCEPTANCE ACCEPTANCE AND guess what ACCEPTANCE ...
WUhuuuu i love this word... NOT
So something you learn as a mental sick person in each different sort of therapy i swear: You have to accept that you have an illness and you also have to accept this illness can not control your whole life.. no matter how much you deny it...Neither you have an addiction, an eating disorder or any mental problem you have to deal with.. If you live that life on and on without changing something, you will not have a long or anything like a happy life.. I always try to think of me with 40 years still being struck in an haggard lean small body with a shrunken face still thinking about calories and counting them..  spending hours on not eating.... 

AND especially being alone then.. yeah an mental health issue makes you lonely... because you shock and scare away all your loved ones or those who would show interest on you :S 
And in my case, loneliness is the worst thing i can experience... only the thought of someone hating me is killing but being alone in this world is absolute horror for me... Brrrr... feels icecold....
So as my therapist one day told me in the day clinic: Either you accept that you need to gain weight for living a healthy life or you will starve yourself every day and then? Can you see any joy in this battle you do? 
And for sure the only right answer would be NO... There is no joy and happiness in your life, being totally in starving mode each day... So you wanna swap? 

Let go...and accept it

Awww and here are some self plucked
strawberries *_* just for a better mood ;) 

Bäm and this is something i learned as well.. if you don´t show any will to change something and show motivation to fully recover, this will never work... 
You can´t become healthy for anybody else than yourself... and for this you definitively need to see how beautiful and unique you are.... yeah gaining weight is really hard and especially if you have a very low BMI, but do not forget to do it for yourself.. i got to know so many beautiful girls in the clinic who made such super effort in gaining and getting so much tribute from the therapists, but most likely (this is my own experience from the clinic) about 80% relapse again... and this i think comes from the fact that they did not do it for themselves....

So by everything you do, accept it.. you need to make a decision to go for something and then stand for it... Like recovery: choose it, and then do it :) No way back okay!!!!!! 
Now a lovely sunday evening my sweeties :) <3 xoxoxoxoxo