The ultimative Schnaaaapszahl 22 :)

Huhuuuuuuuuu Sweeties :) 

Oh yeeees just as the topic itself saaaays, I am officially 22 now :) OMG what an old aage right? :D
Noo of course not ;) I truly can tell you it was such a special day for me ;) And all in all it especially were the right people who made it as wonderful as it could even be for me ;) 
Soooo on the 29th i had taken a leave of absence from work and been woken up by my cat Bobbel actually quiet early ;) It was like he would know it was my birthday, because he often jumped into my bed when i was younger, but since last year never made it anymore ;) and on this daaay he jumped next to me and started cuddling :D it was sooo cute *_* 

Looooook what a cuuuute chocolate 

Nuuuutella Cake my mammy made for me *_* heaven as you can guess :D

All my presents hehe ;) 

So afterwards i made breakfast and received some sweet presents like a handbag, a jewelry for my pandora bracelet, colors for painting, a parfum, some clothes i had already chosen and some sweeeeeets ;) After that me and mum made our way to Augsburg to a clothes shopping center, which kind of has aaaaaaaall sorts and brands of clothes ;) Wow it was so big and i truly fell for it in a true euphoria hahaaaa :) I bought a some jackets, shirts, earrings, a sun glass and and and..... :S it was so fun ;) and so expensive in the end... :D 
For lunch we went for a place which offers "running sushi" you know this? Hahaa no it is not running after a sushi piece, it more is like a flow belt which again and again passes you table with all kind of different asian dishes and sushis :) each one on little cute plates you can take from it and eat ;) we booked all you can eat and it was just so nice :) and especially guessing which food is what was fun ;) because many of the chinese foods are so uncommon here as well ;) 

So and in the evening we had some relatives and friends at our house here and it was also such a lovely way to finish this very special day for me ;) And another thing which made it such a wonderful day, that i was so surprised of how many people sent me their congrats :) there were like over 65 people sending me a message and this made me feel somehow special and i loved it :) Sorry hehe :) I feel so happy about this day all in all ;) Thanks to everyone who made it as lovely as it was :) xxxxx all the best to you ;) 

One year agooooo ;) wow can´t believe it ;)

Goood morning  and haaaappy weekend my sweethearts :) <3

Yeeeeeeeah the week is nearly finished ;) haha at least the working part of it ;) 

First cabrio tour of 2017 *_*

I had a little more short week than normally, because i was sick two of the days because i had such back and all in all aches all over from my shoulders down my spine :S I felt so whacked all the week and so i missed one day of school and work, because i felt like i couldn´t really make it without getting too stressed over it :) 
So do you have any plans for the weekend? 
Here in Germany i hooope so much (but the chances may bee good :)) that spring settles in a bit :) Like all the beautiful little spring flowers come out and the suuuuun also shines on some days *_* Aw i am so in love with the lovely weather :) this is something which influences my mood soooo (often too) much ;) haha i am so much better at days when the sun is out and i feel like relaxed, calm, happy and glaaaad ;) 

RED again and not caring what others think ;)
Hell yeeeeeeeees :D 

Sooo now a short update ;) On the 23rd of march,  it exactly was a year i was released from the clinic :) WOW it feels so amazing for me that it is now 1 YEAR !!!! I can´t really believe how much has changed since then ;) Like in myself and all the people around me ;) I am so much happier now and looking back makes me feel so sentimental ;) because how many things happened and what experiences i made, made me the person i am now ;) And this makes me as happy as i could even be ;) Going through some hard, though times leaves its mark on a person, but each scratch makes me more unique and strong ;) like a battle wound which hurts so much, but after going through it, you will be proud that you survived! And this is how it kinda feels for me ;) 
I hope you know what i ttry to tell by this ;) each mistake, illness, hard time in life always will reveal a lesson for you, you maybe never wanna make again and this is how it shapes you to become the person you are ;) and i also love the quote: When life gets hard, remind yourself diamonds are made under pressure!!!!!


So never stay at one point stuck in your life, move on, forget, forgive, love again and never get stuck in the past ;) this is the wrong direction ;)
This is truly what i am also trying to do now: Being free and do stuff i wanna do, no matter what others could talk about ;)
So last weekend me and my sis were at an amazing concert of a well-known DJ, you also know Felix Jaehn? It was just a stunning atmosphere and we truly enjoyed ourselves ;) also got drunk and still trying to keep this euphoria of such evenings up and be myself ;) 

So much about me now ;) I hope you are all fine and having a wonderful, saturday morning ;) and a great weekend;) any special plans for next week? ;) 
Haha my only plan is getting older  ;) My birthday is coming up.... ;) 
xxxxxxxxxx <3

Calm down, relaaaax.. :) Life is coooool

HUhuuuuu huuuns ;) and all my buns :) 

How are you? It is the middle of the week and i am a bit powerless already puuuuh :) don´t exactly know why but feeling a bit dizzy since yesterday and i hope this will paaaass ;) staying optimistic ;) because on the weekend i am going to a big big concert ;) *_* Felix Jaehn is coming to Augsburg ;) hehe and guess who was a ticket ????? -><-

So one thing i also realized today is (One thing is: I am a very aggressive car driver :D haha) that something i truly have to work on is calming down and not being over the point as soon as i get a little stressed or under pressure ;S because i am so much like from 0 to 180 in one second or something ;) this exactly happens for example on my way to work ;) I nearly start from home on time (maybe already a few seconds late) but then i have like 100 slow trucks in front of me or which is rather as annoying as a truck a car which never drives in the normal allowed speed ;) they seem like they wanna win an award as the slowest people on the street ever :D haha i am too sarcastic now, i am sorry, but today i was in a bit of a hurry and i really went in such an aggressive mood because all people driving so slow and damn in a slow queue :( I really had to calm down afterwards :( I know this sounds like a really stupid problem, but for me this makes me feel stressed :( and i know the only way becoming less aggressive is getting started earlier for less time problems :( but this is something i am so bad at managing :( haha time management is not my strong point :DDD

This also is in many parts of my life a challenge for me: Time management and general management and organization itself :S

But more about this topic in the next post ;) I am now going to watch the "Bachelor" (haha you guys know this dating show in your country as well? ;)) soooo stupid but funny to watch :D wish you all a wonderful night now ;) xxxxxxxxxx 

Overthinking and routine kills.... :)

Huhhuuuuuuuuu my Sweetnuts ;)
I know the topic sounds not very happy, springily and flowery, but actually it just features this blog post which i wanted to write since aaaages very well ;) 
Just a few short updateeeees about life right now ;) 

it of course needed to be pink ;) haha :D 

Sooo carnival is now over and i maaaade many many great new experiences, met many new cool people and simply had a fuuuuun and amazing time ;) which i really didn´t expect at all, because i never was such a carnival person, but it was so nice *_* 
Aaaaaaand so i had no school this week, but also work ;) but today i took the day off simply all in all for ME and went shopping to Augsburg ;) the weather was so lovely and warm so i went into the Annastraße and did some clothes and present shopping ;) AAAnd relatively spontaneous i decided to go to the piercer and maaaade a belly piercing ;) Hahaa :D this was something i was so unsure, but now i gooooot it ;) Heeeeell yes ;) Sorry i am a bit euphoric right now ;) last evening and today i am doing now absolutely nothing, because after last week the end dash of carnival and friday night out i am so tiiiiired haha ;S 


So now back again to my post intention ;) 
Something which i sooo often always realize again and again: Having some routine of course is necessary for every-day life but it especially if you have some tendency for any kind of addictions caaan be dangerous :S For me this always shows in the smallest little things which can suddenly make me feel confused in any situation :S Like for example, since i started working and also at any day in the week my eating times vary so so much that it really became unimportant for me, which at my worst time was like a succession of rituals and processions :( Oh this was so horrible thinking only about food each day and it became a habit and a routine :( it became worse and worse day by day if you don´t break through it and change something ;) so on the weekend i stand up later and make my breakfast also later and at working days i eat my bread for lunch and the warm meal for dinner :) so this simply varies and i lost the kind of ritual thing for it ;) So keep varying also the smallest things so that there is no chance of it becoming too strict for you ;) 

Also another thing i wanted to write about such a long time ago is my tendency of overthinking really EVERYTHING :) It kinda is like if i am/was having a great time and i totally enjoyed myself afterwards i pass every little detail again and again in my head and paraphrase like 1000 things into it .... of course: negative ones and i think i made this and that wrong again :( I hate this, because i know when i made it i was feeling so great and also mostly confident and sure about it :S So this truly makes me insecure afterwards and unhappy so this is a real problem for me, because i am such a person who enjoys something with her heart if she feels for it ;) but if i don´t feel comfortable i also immediately start asking myself what decisions i took were wrong or why i am feeling not good right where i am :( puuuuh a little bit confusing right? =) 
Haha so i better head up to bed right now ;S But i hope you somehow understood what i wanted to tell you about :) all going on in my head :S :D 
So i wish you a wonderful night now and a great start into the new week ;) hopefully it will be a good one ;) Lots of looove xxxx

Faaaaasching :)

Hallööööchen meine Liiiiiiiieben *_* 

This is Germaaaaaaan ;) and because i live in Germany and now also a typical German festivity is celebrated, i will also be a little bit traditional and thought of telling you a little bit more about my hooooooome ;) Its carnival or we call it "Fasching" =) 
Many people here name it the 5th season of the year (I never really celebrated it thaaat much, but since last year i wasn't able to go to any celebration because i was in the clinic, i now reeeeaally enjoy it much more :)) 
Do you know carnival in your country? Of course i think you all have heard of the biig carnival in Rio :) I don´t really know much about this one but here in Germany we celebrate it with many "Faschingsumzüge" and other celebrations like balls or parties :) 
So tomorrow and nearly every weekend now many of such processions take place in all kind of villages :) big or small 

So this one was made today ;) with a feeeew small drinks before ;)
Hahaa the fun thing we didn´t even recognize or know the guy in the background :D
Me, my sis Susi and my neighbour Franzi <3 

The special thing about carnival is, everybody (or all of those who want to :D) dresses up in fancy outfits and special costumes :) so you may not even will be able to identify them ;) haha :D the last few years i went out dressed up as a housemaid with everything like a dust wiper and such stuff ;) Awww and what do i do this year? ;) I am a real devil this year :D haha :) I just bought a devilish red short dress and a hairband with horns and some other little details ;) Of course deeeeeep down in my inner soul i of course am more an angel than a devil ;) just as my name already says haha :) but sometimes you just have to go against the crowd :D just jooooking ;) 

So toooday i was also going to a Faschingsumzug, a carnival parade, and this is just very much fun, because many little towns all create different carnival dares with many mottos and topics ;) like for example super mario, pirates, witches, vampires, ..... and they all go in a convoy through the streets with looooooud music and throwing sweets at the people standing in the streets watching and cheering them ;) Even though i never was part of such a special carnival union, i loooove watching them and afterwards always is a big party :) and with all the costumes and masks of the people this is so much fun ;) 

So how is this time of the year celebrated wherever you live? ;) 
Wish you a gooood night now my honeeeeys :) 
xxx Just enjoy the ride ;) my motto right now :) <3

It is thaaaat day again :)

HAAAAAAAAPPY WORLD NUTELLA DAY!!!!!!!!!

Huhuuu my Sweetiiies :) 

Just shortly stopping again by and wanted to wish you a wonderful World Nutella Day at the 5th of february ;)
I nearly would have forgotten about it (shaaaame on me :D) but thanks to modern internet, i glady was reminded ;) So i wish you a wonderful chocolatey day now, and enjoy your spoon of Nutella ;) For sure you will looooove it ;) And always remember: Nutella can save lives :) 

Here in Germany we at the moment have a special offer of creating our own personal
Nutella jar and so i did my own ;)

Puuuh I was having the fluuuuu :S :(

Helloooooooo my cuuties ;) xxx

Yes, the topic mostly describes it perfectly, doesn´t it? :D 
Oh i can tell you, i haven´t had fever since over 3 years or something like that, but last week on wednesday it really hit me.... :S 
It all started with kind of a confusing feeling of dumbness all over on tuesday evening, and then on wednesday when i stood up i felt really strange, so i decided not to go to work and chill ;) and then around lunchtime i suddenly felt so cold inside, like i was shaking and felt like i never would be warm again, even layered with 3 wool blankets and a hot water bottle :S so we measured my temperature and it was like 38,3 and my head felt like it was going to explode :S okaaay so the rest of the day and the next three ones was on the couch and in the bed :S not leaving the house any time felt so confusing for me:S and so on sunday when i finally thought i was over the worst part of it, i started sneezing and coughing :( haaha like everything would like to hit me in one week :) 
But nevertheless, it all passes and this week i already was fit as half a fiddle again :S Haha :D 

Chilling my time with my great company my cat Bobbel;) 

Sooomething i really realized at being sick is aaaagain (who wonders?:D) who really cares about you and your well being and blessing and how important ones health truly is :) You know what i mean? I starved myself so much the past few years with eating less and less and when something like a flu hits me i worry about myself ;) for me realizing this absolutely made me feel like a full idiot :) I mean, why am i concerned about my health when i can´t change something about being ill, but choosing to make me feel sick, powerless, hungry and starving is okay? Puh this really made me think again, how unbelievably harmful the own mind can be........
SO never look back, only in front!!!!!!
Wish you now a wonderful weekend my dears ;) Is carnival also celebrated in your country? ;) here it is starting right now ;) with all the costumes ;) I am going to do a devil :) HAAHa ;) 
xxxxx