OMG I did it!!!! I made my second tattoo ever.... On Friday I had the appointment :) :)
I was soooo excited because i wanted one for such a long time now already but never was able to decide which symbol or text, and where at which place on my body i wanna make it... So on monday i called and they told me friday at 11 and i was like wow how cool, because there was a resident tattoo artist who should be really good :D
So at the end there was the choice between a quote on the side of the ribs, or an ankle chain or something at my back ... puuuuh when i was there i actually wanted to ran away for a minute because i HATE decisions and i am so bad at making them... :S
But nevertheless i made one:
NEVER A FAILURE, ALWAYS A LESSON XXX
So this quote has a special meaning for me... because through my illness i discovered that i am always making myself soooo bad for being weak or making something wrong.. Like it would be a total catastrophe me doing a failure... and the world would hate me or go down.... Like you know what i mean?
And this now could be my reminder, that each mistake i made (through anorexia or just in normal life) is not a failure at all.. it just was a lesson, that i experienced.. and still life went on!! Like each person, boy, or false friend was a lesson, like they are not in my life anymore, but it taught me how other people sometimes deal with you and this often is not nice....But so it is better they are not part of YOUR life now anymore, so i made the lesson, no more trust to this person and i can move on to better ones... Hopefully ;)
And those three X stand for each member of my Family, because they truly saved my life!!! So they mean the world to me and this should be a reminder i am never alone as long as i have my mum, dad and sister in my life! Gives me hope! :)
Sooo now i wish you all a very woooonderful Sonntag now and (hopefully you do not have such hangover as me right now haha ;)) xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
