Yes it is now already 2020 and i was right guessing in my last blog post of 2019 that i will be drunk on New Years Eve haha.. :D
And yes it was muuuuch better than the year before :) And well for sure now it is a kind of weird feeling that a new year has begun... all the opportunities and duties it brings again.. kind of starting again from zero.. but thats just in my head i know.. it is not different in any way than it was on the 31st december...
So why are people making up some intentions for new year? It feels like everybody wants to eat healthier or go in masses to the fitness center....?! Just wtf... I mean why at the beginning of a new year? Where is the sense? Such thoughts always bond people and as i am a person who easily gets caught in routine, this is confusing..i do not wanna start from zero each year.. i just want a whole flow from year to year month to month and day by day...
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| My new tattoo i made with my best friend ;) She has a bee and i have the word HONEY ;) |
So now i already started this blog post about one month ago, it already is february and carnival has come ;) this weekend i was on my first carnival parade and realized how fast again time flew by, just living without MISS M right now fully at the moment ;) YES; i feel i totally got her at the moment ;) for sure she still is here and i feel her at some precious situations a lot, BUT all in all, i recognized i can dim her to the minimum down and ignore her ...;) yes the bad thoughts afterwards are still here, for example after a really challening meal like a typical german Zwiebelrostbraten with Käsespätze, what i ate at the birthday party of a friend ..) But i know how to deal with it and not restrict anymore again ;)
All in all i must again say, that change is necessary to fully heal, just as this quote my therapist again and again told me says: "You can´t heal in an environment in which you got sick..." and well YES he is right ;) Never really believed this, but now i totally agree with it :) Being away from my old home and then moving in a new one.. yes it changed me and it was just the beginning of many following changes... But about this i will make another blog post again ;) Just not being in my old room again and such little things made it quiet a lot easier as i thought ;)
Wooooow and now i wish you alsoooo a haaaaaaapppyyyyyy woorld NUTELLA DAY ;) Yes, this day always is marked in my calendar :DDDDD
So guys, just keep eating NUTELLA and celebrate your life and this special day ;) because life is not bad always, this is just your thoughts about ;)
Haha such a wise end of this post ;)))))))
WIsh you a wonderful night now ;)
