Hellooooo hello again, long time no see i know :S
But a lot has happened recently in my life... it seemed like this fucking year 2018 would never end? :) but it did and 2019 did not start anyhow better.. but later more to this.. ;D
Okay, so in the second week of november the Living community in Munich finally called me...I signed myself in there in August, on the advice of the chief psychologist of the Schön Klinik... He told me this would help me to get the balance between the life in the clinic to the life afterwards at home... For me this felt like WTF?! I never wanted to move out from home, especially because my family has moved into our new house this year.. so i wanted to live there as well for sure... but he was convinced of the opinion i would not make it at home again.. and maybe he was right, i thought... i decided to give it a try... i visited to of those living groups in Munich and loved the one which was at the very city center... ;) I really signed in....
WOW what a step again, for me the homesick girl.... i always thought i could not live somewhere else, but now this was not such a big step for me as i even thought.... in a positive way.. right now i do not know how to think about living here, it just feels kind of unreal and weird at the moment.. Like me lost in the big city :S And for sure being new in a wg with 24 girls is really not easy, but i think i need to make my way through it right now and give it a chance.. because it absolutely is not what i expected it to be, because it is most of the time soo boring...
Soooo making another big decision which maybe sounds weird, because i live in a therapeutically accompanied living group, i signed in the day clinic... :S sounds confusing, and it also is for me, but i truly have to tell you, this daily support is not what i expected it to be in here... in the morning we only do such waste of time like doing walks, strolls through munich without any real goal, or do tinker or play games.. no daily structure anyhow given... and this mostly was the reason why making the decision of going to the day clinic: I have a daily structure and i still have to gain weight and this works there as well faster as in the wg... :S
I don´t know if you understand all of my writing in this post, because i am as well, kind of confused and it is hard to explain, but i am not feeling very comfortable here at the moment.. like being parked in this wg and not knowing what to do with myself... my apprenticeship still is on ice until august and i hope i will be ready to continue it then again.. so this is what i am working straight towars.. so weight gain is priority and learning to take care and responsibility for me:)))))))
Maybe you also have made experiences with such living groups or day clinics? =) I would love to hear from you ;)would be so cool to hear ;) wish you a lovely sunday my honeybees ;)
Unfortunately the internet is so bad in here that i can´t upload any pic.... :( soo this post also looks soo boring.. so sorry for that :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxo
