Acceptance... the most ever used word in every therapy you definitively should know about ;)

Huhuuu all you lovelies and bees ;) :-*

I think the title at all describes best and already what this blog post will be about, right?! :) 
Yeah it´s all about ACCEPTANCE ACCEPTANCE AND guess what ACCEPTANCE ...
WUhuuuu i love this word... NOT
So something you learn as a mental sick person in each different sort of therapy i swear: You have to accept that you have an illness and you also have to accept this illness can not control your whole life.. no matter how much you deny it...Neither you have an addiction, an eating disorder or any mental problem you have to deal with.. If you live that life on and on without changing something, you will not have a long or anything like a happy life.. I always try to think of me with 40 years still being struck in an haggard lean small body with a shrunken face still thinking about calories and counting them..  spending hours on not eating.... 

AND especially being alone then.. yeah an mental health issue makes you lonely... because you shock and scare away all your loved ones or those who would show interest on you :S 
And in my case, loneliness is the worst thing i can experience... only the thought of someone hating me is killing but being alone in this world is absolute horror for me... Brrrr... feels icecold....
So as my therapist one day told me in the day clinic: Either you accept that you need to gain weight for living a healthy life or you will starve yourself every day and then? Can you see any joy in this battle you do? 
And for sure the only right answer would be NO... There is no joy and happiness in your life, being totally in starving mode each day... So you wanna swap? 

Let go...and accept it

Awww and here are some self plucked
strawberries *_* just for a better mood ;) 

Bäm and this is something i learned as well.. if you don´t show any will to change something and show motivation to fully recover, this will never work... 
You can´t become healthy for anybody else than yourself... and for this you definitively need to see how beautiful and unique you are.... yeah gaining weight is really hard and especially if you have a very low BMI, but do not forget to do it for yourself.. i got to know so many beautiful girls in the clinic who made such super effort in gaining and getting so much tribute from the therapists, but most likely (this is my own experience from the clinic) about 80% relapse again... and this i think comes from the fact that they did not do it for themselves....

So by everything you do, accept it.. you need to make a decision to go for something and then stand for it... Like recovery: choose it, and then do it :) No way back okay!!!!!! 
Now a lovely sunday evening my sweeties :) <3 xoxoxoxoxo