Getting along and stumbling in my life... Moving on ;)

Huhuuuuu Honeybees :)

Wow such a complicated life for me now... i definitively have to take good care of me right now not falling back into old sick habits..
As you may noticed from my previous posts, my life is changing so much at the moment and i truly have to be open for new opportunities, duties and letting the old behind me once for all... for sure the past waas not only bad or anything like that at all, but i absolutely realized now, that the one thing which is needed now: Getting grown-up and not remain in the past....
Yeah Miss Mager is the darkest chapter in my life and there are sooo many negative memories connected with this.. 

One thing i learned in the past years: It is just a bad day, not a bad life :) 

So what actually happens right now? Soooo one very big decision now is coming regarding to my job and my apprenticeship, because they offer me something which could work out well, but on the other hand it would mean a lot of stress and as you may know: Stress is the biggest factor for falling back to anorexia.... So this is something i truly have to figure out well and not make any prematurely decisions....

The other thing which affects me still is the circle of people/friends i spend and enjoy spending time with.... Losing some people, making new friends, being part of a group, having some exciting relationships with some boys,.... andandand....all this bothers me a lot at the moment... i mean i learnt so much the last weeks and met some unbelievable heartwarming peeeps, which absolutely pushes me a lot in recovery and it makes me feel loved and this is the best feeling ever for me ;) I pray to god that these people stay and not like others leave from one day to another :) #pleasestayatmyside :-*
Haha :) 

So something else i also wanted to share with you is, that i started with art therapy again ;) Just had one lesson, but it was really amazing, creating something outside in the garden and not knowing the result, just giving my thoughts a try :) this is something i truly can recommend to everyone who needs some help with their mental health ;) Maybe just giving it a try: I mean me for myself i hate drawing something real, i only let my mind play and do abstract pictures :) may sound bit weird for you, but i swear many people as well state that this has such a positive influence on your mind and body ;) Just give it a try okay? ;) 

Thats the first result of the drawing ;) Haha no by the way,
this is just the background ;) More to follow.....

So enough said for today ;) I wish you all a wonderful evening now my sweeties *_* Hope you have a good one and enjoying the summer ;) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Mwaaaah :-*