Haha yes you are right? She maybe got crazy, but nooo for sure not ;) But I am so happy my Sweeties, that I regained something in my recovery which I for now maybe the last two years wasn't able any more, because I totally refused it to myself :(
In concret I am talking about nibbling, munching and snacking on little thingies all throughout the whole day :)
I really honestly wasn´t able to do this anymore, even in all the time of my recovery :) I was refusing every little bit, because it felt so wrong for me and I was so afraid of gaining weight by eating it :(
BUT NOW something which I never would have believed would happen: I started to snack nuts!!!!!! ME? Yes, even though I (the old Ange) really hated the taste of nuts, peanuts and cashews, I started eating it and became so fascinated of those salted little things :) Or also I used to HATE the taste of Peanut Butter and now, I sometimes have it on my toast ;) Can you imagine this? I learned to nibble again by the help of something which never would have been worth it for Miss Mager... :) this makes me so happy and it feels so much like fun, eating such a crispy nut, which crushes by biting on it ;) Oh and I think the special thing for me is also, that there are so many different flavors you can choose: salted, honey, sweet, spicy, ..... :) I really enjoy having such a variety ;)
OH so my little peanuts, what about you? Maybe this will help you also a little bit in your recovery: try food which you never really loved before you got ill (because in your mind you are tricking Miss Mager by doing this ;)) you are actually forcing yourself to eat something which according to your ED isn´t worth enough eating it ;) but you will discover so many new flavors and maaaaaybe (like it was at myself) you will love the taste ;)
Really believe me, everybody who knows me, knew that I didn´t like nuts, but now, they helped me to claim another step in my recovery and I am very thankful for my Mammi making me trying them ;) It maybe took her a while, but I did it!! ^^
So maybe you also have some useful tricks for tricksing Miss Mager? ;) I would be so glad to get to know them ;) I could really use some new tricks ;)
Love u all and sending you nutty huuuugs ;)
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Angeeeeeeee I'm soooooo proud of you!!!!!!!! Very well done you for eating the nuts, you should be so very proud of yourself too and keep doing it! Here is a tick - the more you keep snacking, the easier it will get and you won't feel like you are forcing yourself to snack any more, it will just be a natural thing for you to do. Little and often is the best way forward in recovery I believe, so you eating a little bit of nuts is a very good thing indeed! Keep up your amazing hard work, you're doing so well! Xxx
ReplyDeleteAwwww *_* this is so cute ;) thank you so so much Annie ;) this means a lot to me ;) Oh this tip is so helpful and true ;) the more often I will do it or allow it to myself, the more easy and normal it will get ;) do you have a special snackyyy thing hun? =) Like sweets or fruits? ;) Huuuug you <3 xxx
DeleteI don't have any one special snacky thing. I don't eat meals, so it's snacks that I tend to survive on, I love snacking throughout the day - yogurts (petits filous if you can get them in Germany?), seaweed, Haribo sweets, mini satsumas, and of course coffee! It's really good if you can fight Miss Mager and allow yourself to snack throughout the day. Keep fighting my lovely friend. You can beat this monster because I believe you can! Sending love and hugs to you xxxx <3
DeleteHi Ange, I add a spoonful of cornflakes to my already prepared musli and don't tell anybody, so anorexia has no chance to notice it. Talking about it draws miss mager's voice to what I do, so I keep my mouth shut.
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Wow Marie, this is such a great idea and trick as well ;) I definitively should trick her in this kind of way as well ;) just a spoonful will be so helpful, in my opinion as well ;) so thank you so so much for your lovely advice ;) Lots of love xxx <3
DeleteNuts are sooo good :) I always snack on them and they are usually my standard "im sort of hungry and in the kitchen" snack so i take a handful or two :) Which nuts are your favourite?
ReplyDeleteAnd this is great progress :) Snacks are awesome and nuts are a great type of snack!!
OMG *_* thank you so much Izzy!! :) this makes me so happy :) I totally have to agree with you, they are so great to have :) but when I was little, I didn´t like them at all, only since I tried them now after years I totally fell in love with them *_* my favs areeeee I think probably cashews, what about you? which do you prefer? =) they are kind of brain food, aren´t they? :) Thaaanks so much :)
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