Sometimes all you need is a holiday :) MY FIRST CRUISE *_*

And I just say HELLOOOOOO again..... :) 

I think the topic itself speaks out what I truly mean ;) So this definitively was so much needed for me !!!!!
I was feeling really really down for some reason again and not sure what I really could or wanna do :S 

Oh and then my family surprised me with a holiday ;) *_* OMG I was so excited as I got to know it: Me and my Mam would do a cruise with the AIDA ferry!!!!! 
AHHHHHHH this is crazy cool isn´t it? :D 
So where would we go? The CANARY ISLANDS and MADEIRA ;)

 
So we started on Saturday morning by flying to Gran Canaria, where our cruise the Aidacara was waiting in the harbor! 
We both were so nervous and excited ;) the ship went off the harbor the next day and now we were one day at the sea ;) hahaa it really was a bit wobbly :D but all in all I wasn´t seasick fortunately ;) The food buffet in the restaurants on board was amazing ;) and so special with such funny staff :D The very amazing thing for me on the ship was that since a very long time now, I truly was able to relax and forget about many worries :) sounds like a cliche but it really was like floating :) 



On wednesday we arrived in Madeira, in the port of the capital Funchal ;) Oh such a stunning view, I absolutely have to say ;) we booked a tour ;) so we had the possibility to visit the colorful city market, a wine distillery, try some liquor, visit a cathedral, take a ride in the cable car over the town and have a view at the amazing botanical garden :) really stunning ;) On the next day we also were on sea again ;) we really joined the ride ;) hahaa no we just chilled at the pool deck most of the time and went eating ;) 






Lanzarote was our next stop: We took part at a jeep safari ;) the island definitively looked so much different than we expected: So much volcanic and black sands and so on :) All in all it was a quite really cool experience :) 
The next port we sailed into was the one of San Sebastian de La Gomera ;)  a so much smaller island with many green hills and fields ;) such a contrast ;) but very lovely to drive and make stops at ;) 
On the next morning we already arrived at Teneriffa ;) where we headed to a harbor to do a trip with a catamaran and saw some whales and also dolphins :) I was just like WOW! In the afternoon me and mammy went to Santa Cruz for doing some shopping and stopping by at Mc Donalds haha:D 












Our last stop again was Gran Canaria from where we then flew hoooooome again :( so on saturday night we were in Munich again :S 
I am always sooooo sad when a holiday is over, especially if it was such a special one as this one was for me ;) so thanks Mama for doing this trip with me!!! <3 I learned a lot about the pleasures of life again ;) 

EM ;) Okay I am no fan of soccer, but anyway it is time for a new post ;)

Huhhuuuuuuu my beeeeeebs ;) 

How are you? ;) Weeeeeell I am quite happy the last days ;) even though today the weather is like shit again, but the last days were sooo sunny and warm ;) this always boosts my mood ;) as well as having a wonderful time with my family and friends, going out, working my job and and and... ;) 

Haha I am not really sure if I ever told you that I am no big fan of soccer or football at all ;) but every championship I am also watching some of those games ;) 
And I took this one as an occasion for writing a new blog post ;) For this I thought about all the playing nations coming together at one table ;) and what foods would they bring for sharing ;) so it now is time for one of my foodiiiie posts ;) Like I thought which country which meal? ;) What would you bring as a national dish for sharing it with the others? ;) 

For me it even is quite difficult to find something typical german ;) PUUUUUUH 
But in my researches I found out the most typical dish for Germany is the Bratwurst with Sauerkraut and Kartoffelpüree (mashed potatoes) and mustard ;) also other sausages like Currywurst mit Pommes (fries, chips), or in the southern regions Weißwurst mit Brezen ;) But all in all I think it is sooooo difficult to find ONE special dish for a country ;) I think some of those I will write now will be sooooo cliché for you right? ;) 

Soooo Italy may be one of the most obvious ones ;) Because who would say no to a Pizzaaaaa freshly made in an Italian Pizzeria ? :O also I think many different variations of Pasta are sooo typically for this beautiful southern country *_* 

A country I love soooo unbelievably much is Ireland :-* And for this one it was not so hard to find a speciality ;) It is the well-known Irish Stew ;) probably and sometimes added a hint of Guinness hehe ;) 

Being already in this area of the world I also switch over to Great Britain :) Another very very special island for me ;) so stunning to be ;) A national dish is for sure Fish & Chips ;) And now imagine having some of it at a stunning, fascinating beach in the middle of nowhere in GB *_* heaven right? ;) 

Ooooh I am now realizing there are soooo many cool countries to introduce their meals, so I now try to make it a little bit shorter :D
Spain (Paella -> A rice pan with different kinds of fish, meat and vegetables, Tortillas, Tapas),
Sweden (Köttbullar-> meat balls ;) you all know them from Ikea right? :S such a cliche), 
Turkey (Döner), 
Ukraine (Borscht), 
Portugal (Bacalhau-> it is a fish regionally made), 
Hungary (Gulasch),
 France (Crepe-> a very thin pancake filled with everything you want, Pot-au-Feu), 
Austria (Wiener Schnitzel-> a breaded cutlet), 
Greece (Moussaka), 

Sooo I hope so so much I am not wrong about anything of this ;) but I tried my best on researching it ;) hehe wish you a wonder wonderful evening now my Loves ;) xxxx

Much happening over here...!!!!!!!!!!! *_*

Heyhooooo my Rays of Sunshine!!!!! 

Like i already said many many things are happening here right now ;) 
The weather is playing like crazy here in Germany and last sunday there only were like 10 degrees and on sunday were like 30 :S bit confusing but I definitively like the hot ooooone *_*

I am the second one ;) 

So last saturday (but most specially on sunday) I was allowed with 7 other girls from my hometown to be a so called "Festdame" for the celebration of the partner of our fire brigade ) I would never have imagined what a crazy, special and most of all coooooool experience this would beeeeeee: Like I at first was so afraid to be watched by so many many people and being on a stage as well ;) SO for all of you who don´t truly know what this means ;) I think it is very difficult to be explained in english, because it is a typical German tradition :S Puuuuuh but i will try my best, okay? ;) :
Every town has its own volunteer firefighters (:)) and if a town celebrates an anniversary like its 125th, this is celebrated by a big festivity ;) And at every of such celebrations each town has its own firmly ladies ;) and they have to help making some great mood and atmosphere ;) but we didn't were the ladies of the fire department which was celebrating 125 years ;) we were the ones of the related fire department ;) buuuut guys I can tell you it was so so much fun ;) we wore the same outfits and waving our bouquet of flowers ;) and even though the weather was sooooo cold (like 10 degrees :D) I totally had so much fun ;) drinking beer and simply having an amazing and special 

Papa and his bike ;) I sat on his back ;) 

 Sooo and another thing was different this week than normally : My mammy and sister flew on wednesday to New York for spending some greeeeeat time there ;) and so me and my daddy were alone at home :O!!^^ Hahaaaa we are not able to survive :S just joking ;) every lunch we drove after work to my grannies home (she has a german restaurant) and had lunch with my family there ;) and this weekend I for the first time went out for having a bbq ;) because now the weather is soooooo wonderful ;) so me and daddy decided yesterday in the afternoon and today in the morning to do a tour by his motorcycle *_* Aaaaah I haven´t done that since I was soo ill I nearly couldn´t sit on the bike without being able to truly cling to my daddys back :S this was such a stupid, awful and terrible time :S but these tours yesterday and today really were AMAZING ;) I felt sooooo alive and real on the road ;) it was such a special feeling and i felt good *_*  
it was soooooooo cool and i hope we can do it more often now in summer ;) 

Haaaaaaaaaave a wonderful Pentecostal!!!!!!!!!

SOoooooooo today I thought about sharing a very very wonderful and delicious recipe with you, which my mammy surprised me with as a afternoon snack ;) and I definitively can tell you: IT IS YUMMY !!!!!! Everyone of you, who loooooooves Nutella will fall for it.......

It is called: 3 Minute Nutella Mug Cake
You will need: 

• 3 EL (which is a tablespoon) of flour
• 2 EL of sugar (we sometimes use cane sugar, but this is variable)
• 1 medium-sized egg 
• 3 EL cocoa powder 
• 3 EL oil
• 3 EL milk 
• 1 pinch of salt 
• aaaaaaaaaaaand 3 EL Nutella

So far about the ingredients, now you simple have to mix everything in a big mug (because otherwise it will spill over :S) until you have a smooth and squashy dough ;) *_* the next step now is to put the mug into the microwave and heat it up on the highest level for about 2 minutes ;) aaaah you will already smell the delicacy <3 Oh but I nearly forgot something: You probably should put a plate under the mug to make sure if it boils over you won´t make your microwave to dirty :D 

Okayyyyyyy so now you carefully can put your mug out of the microwave and eeeeeeeeenjoy *_* 

Feel free to try it and I would love you to give me a feedback of how it worked ;) thaaaaanks a million my Sweeties *_* 

<3 <3 Have a great time 

Oh the good old Fear Food List ?! :)

Holaaa mi chicas ;) 

SOoo just because I feel a little bit happy now today (it is weekend and the sun is shining;)) I thought about sharing some new blog post with you ;)

Maybe you all see the little category on the top board of my blog ;) the one section which is called Fear Food List :D 

Oh in the last months I truly forgot so much about this list :D (shame on me haha :D) but when I opened it the last days after such a long time I really had to chuckle at the first moment ;) And I think it is quite rationally why ;) I tried out so many many foods in the clinic of which I thought they would be hard for me to eat or still would be a fear food ;) but since I almost tried out every of those things more than once, I truly can say they are no real FEAR any more ;) like have a look at bread, rolls or buns, I eat them daily more than I would ever have thought of doing and integrating it into my meal plan ;) thanks at this place to the clinic ;) this was something I would never have imagined before ;) also the category sweet products of the bakery (which is not crossed here on my blog) is no problem now anymore ;) I try to buy myself as often as possible something sweet there and have a try at it ;) no more fear of yummy fluffy croissants, fancy donuts, cakes or shortcrust pastries *_* I definitively can tell you by doing it more often and not letting bad or negative defiant thoughts in, it will get so much easier and common again ;) NO one of you needs such a fear food list ;) it maybe was helpful at getting used to eating again, but by times eating even those should be more normal ;) and I am still on my way trying it and I hope so much winning this battle !!! 
Doing this again and again: Day by Day ;) 

Lots of love my cuteeeeeeees ;) xxx

SORRY ;) such a big word, isn´t it?

Goood evening Honeys ;)

Sooooo it´s Friday *_* yaaaay 
Today I thought about writing a little post of why saying sorry is such a hard word... I mean of course just speaking it out, isn´t such a difficult act, but TRULY meaning and feeling it from your inside is another chapter out here....
But what does it really mean to apologize for something or feel regret for something....So for sure it contains many chapters....

S  sadness, shame, sorrow, speaking out, speechless, 
O opening, ongoing, organizing, 
R replying, repentance, risk, repeating, redo
R ruining, recreating, rationalize, release, reasoning,
Y yearn, yeah, yabber

So you guys see, sometimes it is easier to really describe what sorry means, but sometimes it really can be difficult and hard to find the right words for it ;) because for example the words with an "y" do not really make any sense right? ;) :D
Sorry for all this rambling.... :)
Sorry can nearly be used for so many occasions ;) the more complicated ones, like in a relationship or with something very important, but also in our common daily communication... :) 
The actual intention of this post should be me, saying SORRY to all my beloved ones... For all I and my ED did to all of you and how much I ruined.........
I only am getting quite actually aware of how much confusion and damage all of this caused and now it is on to me to say sorry for it....But in my opinion there is no apology expressing enough.... So our every-day word sorry may not fit, right? :) 
But for now, it is all I have and all I can say.......
Sorry for all I did......

HAPPINESS IS....

ALOHAAAA ;) 
How are you my Angels? ;) 

Do you all know the internet page HAPPINESS IS....? ;) Oh I can tell you, if you haven't been there on Facebook or Instagram you really should do it, because it is sooooooooo cuuuute *_* 
They always draw such lovely and adorable simple pics and title them with something quite ordinary or nothing special, but which actually truly means happiness ;) And they are so right: There are so many many things in our daily life which we should appreciate much more, but we do not do it because we take them for granted ;) But as I also learned now: Nothing in life is granted ;) So I also decided to search for myself for things which I should appreciate much more or which mean happiness in a actually quite simple way ;)

HAPPINESS IS ...

ü     Leaving all the negatives behind you, Cuddles with your cat, A wonderful chat with your sister, Appreciating being at home after a long time leave, Spending time with your family, Being at the beach, A cabrio drive, The helping hand of your mom, Listening to the waves and smelling the sea, Being stronger than your biggest enemy, The constant trust and support of your dad, Keeping to your plan and being proud of it, A holiday travel, Staying up late, Being true to yourself, A beautiful smile from someone you love, Having fun with friends, A way of life. Working for your goals, Seeing someone after a long time, Receiving a compliment, A smile from a person you love, Real friends who care, Shopping, Testing something new, NUTELLA- LOADS OF NUTELLA, Looking at old photos and revelling nice memories, An adventure together, True love, Dancing stupidely to a great song, A cat which sits on your lap, Chatting with someone special, Doing what you want, Summer days, Waking up with a warm feeling inside, Being excited, Enjoying your job, Living for the moment, Walking in high heels, Not being banned by an illness, Cake whenever I want it, Getting a hug for no reason, Letting go of the things that weigh you down, Watching the sun go down, No worries, Presents from loved ones, Camping and being free, Something unexpected, Glitter in everyday life, Bird chipping, Seeing the results of your efforts, Having a drink, Finally being yourself again, Feeling sand between your toes, Making new contacts, Feeling accepted.....

    Soooooo yeah you are right, there are many of it isn´t it? ;) YES and we definitively should very more often look at them in our life, especially by times we feel quite down ;)