A short review of my last week ;)

As you might know, I myself as a student still have got holidays... (even though this week now I´ve got two tests :() Soooooooo what did I do last week? Of course most of the time I was chilling, relaxing and learning :)

Really normal things..:) 

Buuut I also gooot some helpful therapie and very very good news from my doctor ;) This means, I as an outpatient had to be weighted every week since May and in the first weeks my weight always continuously went down and didn´t stop dropping -> even though everyone tried to make me eat more :( So this doctor, as well as many other people, wanted to see me in hospital as an inpatient, but since the 19th of July my weight raised slowly steadily. So on Tuesday I finally reached the 44 kg (my lowest weight was 37kg)!!!! This in some strange way felt sooo good! I can´t really believe it... :) :)

And now I probably think he also got more trust in me, regarding to the fact, that he understood that I honestly want to become healthy again. So he now only wants me to be weighted/see me at his surgery every three or four weeks. Omg, this makes me absolutely happy!! :)

Aaaaaaand today I weighted myself at home in the morning and the scale showed 44,4 kg and I keep going higher! I actually know that weighting too often is not good and the scale is just a number, you in general shouldn´t even think about, but controlling that the weight doesn´t drop is also very important. So weighting once a week probably seems to be a good solution :)

Alsooooo because of this gain, my mum finally got the courage and the trust in me, that she spontaneously booked two flights for us to Lisbon in Portugal!!! Wow, this feels amazing and I am so much looking forward to it ;) The weather, the sea, the city,.... :)

I hope I can deal with the changes in everyday life, but I don´t actually think there will be problems with my ED, because Miss Mager should simply shut up and keep her thoughts for herself :D

Oh and I nearly forgot.... :)

On Thursday I finally once again managed to remove something from my fear food list! It seemed like ages since the last FF :( Now I have to cross it out from my blog fear food list, too: Mozzarella yeeeah ;) 

I don´t actually know why I´ve been so afraid of it, but I think this has something to do with the real beginning of taking down my weight last year..:(This in fact means, that I loved this cheese before I started dieting and then I found out how many calories it actually has and crossed it from my meal plans. But nooooow it is on it again ;) 

Omg, thank you Izzy so much for mentioning my blog on your page, it is  so amazing to see how many people feel related to oneself ;) Thank you all, who are on my paaage ;) it pushes me so much to know that someone reads my thoughts ;) You are all so lovely :)

And now don´t forget to eat your Nutella toast tomorrow.... or something you crave! xxx